Have you ever asked God to love on you?
Have you ever felt like you just couldn’t go on … unless He did something to touch you with love?
That’s how I felt one day when I asked God to touch me the first time.
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Three months after Wes died, I still wanted to pray, ”How do I live without Wes?!” But I knew better.
The Lord had already answered that prayer by saying, “Live with me.” So, I knew I shouldn’t ask Him that anymore.
But I had to be honest, too. I really didn’t want to live with God. I wanted to live with Wes.
So, this is what I prayed instead…
“Lord, if I could choose, I would rather have Wes’ love than your love because I know how much Wes loved me! If you want me to learn how to live with You … then I need to know how much YOU love me.”
And then I told Him how Wes would do something every day to love me. Things like:
- look at me with love
- smile at me
- hug me
- kiss me
- touch me
- caress me
- talk to me
- listen to me
- take me to dinner
- fill up my gas tank
- wash my car
- get my oil changed
I followed up that list with, “God, can you do these kinds of things for me? Can you do something – every day – in a way that will let me KNOW you are loving on me?”
And then I went to class.
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On the way there, a friend called and asked if I could come by her house after I was done because she had something for me.
When I got there about Noon, she gave me a $100 gas card to Speedway! She said she’d had it for 2 weeks and was glad to finally get it to me.
I was like, “What?! You’ve had this for 2 weeks and just now remembered to get it to me?”
Some coincidence, don’t you think?
The very day I asked God to touch me with love in a way that Wes would, someone gives me a gas card?
Now, that IS something Wes would do for me – fill up my gas tank.
And that, my friends, was only the beginning. That was just the first touch on the first day that I asked.
I have been asking for touches ever since.
Because those touches give me the courage to go on.
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Do you need a touch of love today?
Ask … and ye shall receive.
Blessed be the Lord, for he has wondrously shown his steadfast love to me. (Psalm 31:21)
